about to leave, and feeling sad about that.
a close friend counsels me to "go with high expectations and excitement."
i think there's some mid-30s syndrome (analogous to a mid-life crisis) that is characterized by dashed hopes and an uncomfortable meeting of reality and aspirations. i don't know if i'm supposed to wallow here where i am, or muster some optimism and pollyanna my circumstances.
(maybe i'm too harsh calling on pollyanna, a child. most of my malaise is borne of the humdrum of capitalism which i am pretty sure she wasn't taking on. still, why does it seem ever harder to find a happy medium between ideals and actuality?)
it's a job. we're leaving alaska monday. it's going to be really, really hot & humid.
posted by andrea at 3:42 PM
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I read this post before I too left Alaska. Don't know exactly why, but the entry keeps popping up in my mind, perhaps for the same reasons I remember your statement "I don't believe in private property," and why I've saved the
"Capital is Enclosure" quote I found on your email several years ago. The post makes me think that your awareness has created a rare opportunity to engage with what is, no matter how uncomfortable and regardless of what interpretations others make of it. I wish you well.
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